Chapter 3

The next few weeks of knowing Yoochun was heaven. He would call me at home and we would talk for hours. We would talk about all things, be it things related to school or personal matters. Sometimes he would also share some problem that he faces at home, his family, etc. All I did was trying to be a good friend and gave him a shoulder to lie on. Each and everyday we’ll exchange text messages. And also the usual good night messages before we head to bed. He would check up on me if I have already slept or not. I do not know where I plucked up the courage but one day..

“Chunnie, I like you” I said honestly.

“Mo? You like me? Really?” he asked me, surprised.

“Yeah. Really… I’m honest.”

“Haha... I like you too… ”

“Ahh! This is embarrassing. Thanks for making me happy all these while…”

“What is it about me that you like?’'

“Oh... Didn’t anyone ever tell you that you have a really charming smile?”

“Nope, nobody ever said that.”

“Your smile can make anyone fall in love with you. What about you? What is it that you like about me?”

“You are tall, smart and beautiful…”

“Thank you. Haha… I really don’t know what to say…”

“There’s no need for you to say anything... What else do you like about me?”

“Let me see you’re funny, tall and fair skinned, kind of like my dream guy, really.”

“Aww… That’s so sweet... Andee can I say something?”

“What is it? Go on, you can say anything…’

“There’s something you need to know… And I think you should know”

“Besides you, there’s someone else that I like…”

Those few words pierced through my heart like a shooting arrow, released from a stretched bow.I pretended to be calm and asked,

“Who is she?”

“You know, Lee Jung Eum from the 2nd class in your grade?”

Oh my god why does it have to be her? I know this girl personally. She’s not just an ordinary schoolmate, she’s a friend. A nice one for that matter.

“Andee, she knows about you too.”

I don’t how long they have been close but comparing my relationship with Yoochun which has only been into its first few weeks, I think she must have hated me when she found out. I really don’t know what to say or feel.

“Who do you like more?”

“I can’t answer that question right now… Mianhe…”

Micky’s p.ov.

I was sitting by the window and looked at the message Andee just sent me... She just confessed that she likes me. At least she got the courage to confess it. Now I’m confused. There two very special gals in my life right now. I bet they are fuming mad, wanting to know who I will choose between them... I looked at the scenery outside the window but not mesmerize by anything… Everything seems to be blur.

“Yoochun ah. You seem preoccupied with something. Is everything ok?’ Yunho asked.

“Hyung, can I ask u something?’ Yunho is a very close friend of mine. Although he goes to a different school, we have been childhood friends for so long

If you were in love with two girls what would you do?”

“Whoa. Two girls? At the same time? Chun ah you’re one amazing guy! Hahaha…”

“I’m serious hyung”

“Sorry. But I have no idea. Why?”

“You’re not helping hyung”

“This is something not to be taken lightly. But personally I think now is not the right time to talk bout relationships and love. You’re only 17; you have so much ahead of you. It’s not an important matter now.”

“But the girls are waiting for an answer from me.”

“Since you put it that way, search within your heart and you‘ll know who is the one for you. But like I said, now is not the right time.”

*sighs…

“Thanks hyung.” I gave him a hug.

“I’ll think it through... “

#

The next day in school, When I see Jung Eum in school, I feel different, knowing that we both like the same guy. How can a guy like two gals at the same time? Who does he like more? Who does he love more? Just thinking of these questions makes my head spin. I will just have to act as if nothing has affected me. While walking up the stairs, I saw Jung Eum. She was walking towards my direction…Suddenly I became nervous…Will she attack me or something… Oh God, help me now...

“Andee sshi, hi how are you?”

“I’m fine, thanks. How are you?”

“Yoochun told me about you”

“Yeah he told me about you too”

“How long have you known about this.”

“The moment he started liking you, he told me. What do you like about him anyway?’

“He has a nice smile.”

“Yup. And he’s a nice person isn’t he?”

“Iye... Yoochun is really an honest and nice person...”

“Do you have any idea who he likes more?”

“I don’t know. Erm… I need to go somewhere. Talk to you some other time.”

I just made an excuse about that... I really can’t tolerate it anymore. Who’s to be blamed? Yoochun for having 2 love interests at the same time, or Jung Eum? Or is it simply me, who came between them? Oh God. The headache’s becoming worse.I could not concentrate on anything else the whole day. I think, worrying about things get the better of me. I even ignored Siwon. Sorry, dear best friend.That night, he sms-ed me.

“I heard you’ve talked to Jung Eum. Are you girls ok with each other? I was expecting a not-so-friendly encounter.”

“Nah… Everything’s fine. Jung Eum must be telling u a lot of things."

Then, he told me he liked Jung Eum more. I couldn’t bring myself to ask why.

“I know that you are jealous of her. How I wish there were two Yoochun-s in this world, one for each of you…”

kept silent.

“If I date her and then we break up? Will you accept me back?”He’s posing questions I cannot answer.

“Err… Chunnie... I do not know if I can. Maybe when the time comes, I’ll have an answer… I’ll let that question remain unanswered for now.”

All the while I was saying its ok. I said it’s ok...but truthfully its not. I guess its better that he told me now then later when I’m deeply in love with him. But don’t you think I’m thinking too positively? Ah!!! Why am I so nice?! I blasted the room with music and the song playing was lately by jodechi. I guess my premonitions were right. Tears just keep flowing...

(Play the song “lately” by junsu if u want. Jodechi’s the original singer)

Why is it that when I’m like someone, so close to the guy of my dreams, he gets snatched away? Why must my love be shared? Why must he like someone else too? What does she have that I don’t? And why am I acting so nice? Being ok with it all? I don’t understand myself really.

Lately, I have had the strangest feeling
With no vivid reason here to find
Yet the thought of losing you's been
hanging 'round my mind..…

Well, I'm a man of many wishes
Hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel my eyes won't let me hide
Cause they always start to cry
Cause this time could mean goodbye

Lately I've been staring in the mirror
Very slowly picking me apart
Trying to tell myselfI have no reason with your heart

#

I woke up the next morning to the ring of the alarm clock. My head is so heavy... My eyes are swollen due to too much crying last night… How can I go to school like this? I can’t even bring myself to move out of bed. I could hear someone knocking on the door. That should be Ji-Hoon oppa.

“Andee, its time to wake up for school.” I didn’t reply.

“Andee...” he came closer to my bed.

“Are u ok?’ he touched my hand, “Why is your hand warm?” Then, he touched my forehead.

“Do you have a fever?"

“Oppa, I don’t want to go to school today.”

“I’ll get some medicine and you’ll have to rest at home today.He took off.I pulled my blankets and covered my face.He came back a few minutes later and brought a piece of bread and some medicine.

“Eat this first before eating your pills.”

“Arraseo,” I spoke in a faint voice

Nuna, I’ll bring back some porridge for you ok? If you need anything please call oppa or me?” Kibum said.

Now I feel like I’m the youngest sibling. What would I do without these two?

“Oppa and Kibum will leave first. Bye!” Ji-hoon oppa shouted.

Then I heard the main door closed. And at the same time I dozed off to sleep.